Aryana : tidurlaaa (T.T)

Ok.. I'm officially a mother now.. Means, big responsibility, extra chores and less sleep..

Since beranak 28/10/14, the longest time for me to take a nap was only 1 hour.. Itu pun sebab mintak laa ehsan si ayah tengok2 kan anak dia during visiting hours..

Malam ni laaaagi la. Aryana makin banyak perintah.. Pemarah plak tu.. (-.-")
Then i knew why my hubby was such a grumpy during my pregnancy..

My little 'grumpy Queen'

Sakitnyaaa jahitanku... (T.T)

Anakku sayang.. Behave ya.. At least until all my luka2 sembuh laa.. After this ibu will bring u along when jalan2 shopping at 1borneo yaa.. 

Year End Sale kan x lama lagi.. Uuuuweeee...!

Finally....

My dear little 'Finally' has been arrived last night.. 28/10/2014 at 1.45am..
Ok that's not her name but some of my friends and relatives congratulated me and said 'waahh..finally..'
Ngahaha..

Aryana Shabilla Bt Norfazri..

Last night was the worst moment i've been faced  for my entire life, yet at the end, brought a big bundle of joy for me and husband..

I never thought that i'm such a big screamer! Ok memang bikin malu.. Dulu2 cakap

'kalo aku beranak nanti xmau la teriak2..bikin hilang tenaga ja..'

Padahnya bila sudah cakap besar.. Yeaa.. Hubby was cried so hard watching me screaming like hell on top of my lung.. Keep on jerit 'potong saja laaa aku x tahan aku x kuat.. X mampu teran nihh!!' (Sangat tersipu malu bila ingat balik.. How funny i am that time..siap marah2 doktor ok.. Maluuu)

Baby lahir assisted by vacuum.. Kepala dia terus jadi lonjoooongg.. Sedih.. Ibu veeeeery sory syg sebab x kuat teran (T.T)

Bila baby successfully came out, perasaan macam baru survived dari gua yg mulanya x nampak penghujung dan tiada makanan.. Wahh. Metafora sangat kan..pendek kata, mcm baru escaped from hell!
Happy gilak.. Hubby sambung balik nangis and hugged me so tight while i keep on saying

'Lepas ni kita merancang yangg.. '

Perancangan lepas ni adalah..gigih laa berpantang and bring back my old shape.. Mampu kah?? Hahaaha.then proceed LSCS saja kalo pregnant lagi.. Owhh.. Cukup laa merasa vaginal delivery sekali..

Next time buat entry full pasal experience aku bersalin normal.. Sekarang x mampu menaip panjang.. Yana kuat nangis.. (-.-")

Ayel ku..

You'll always be our first sweetheart..

Fairel Darwisy 

sabar laa wahai hati..

Aku mula rasa bosan dan mau naik marah dengan keadaan sekeliling.. (Meroyan...??)

Am i not putting any effort to make my baby come out faster?? Am i not struggling enough?? So why those people keep on bugging me with THAT question !

'So,u delivered already?'

Have u seen any post on my fb telling everyone that my baby already came out?? Have u seen someone congratulate me there??

SO WHY BOTHER ASKING IF YOU ALREADY KNEW THE ANSWER!!

aku x kisah kawan2 or sodara2 aku sendiri yang tanya aku soalan tu.. I'm thanking them for giving me some tips and encouragement..

Tapi ada yang x pernah ambik tau pun selama ni then tiba2 banyak kali tanya soalan yg sama.. Why ahh?? Aku rasa macam they just want to make fun of me.. Ok mungkin aku ja yg rasa macam tu. Sensitif gila..

Tapi siapa pun di tempat aku akan rasa benda yang sama..aku ni orang yg sedang BERSABAR!

Damn Sleepy!

This little deary of mine came to my house agaiiiiinnn.. Yeeeaaaa!!! So he'll be staying here until his adik come out.. Xda laa boring sangat kehidupan lepas ni..

Last night he slept with me and hubby.. Practice before i'm starting my sleepless night after this. Then mau kasi dia puas2 laa manja dengan aii sebelum adik take over si ibu.

So finally at 11pm.. Tidurlaa budak nakal ku ni.. Lepas bagi dia tengok wayang RIO, baruuuu la mau tidur.aku dengan hubby bole la pi makan aiskrim then we went to sleep afterwards..

Tidur punya tidur, jam 3 pagi i noticed this cute little creature was sleeping deeply on my back. Homaigaaadd. Makan tempat! Badan kecik tapi kawasan tidur dia macam 2 orang gemuk pun bole muat.. Last2, dia tidur di lengan aku sampai pagi..

Gigih laa aku menahan contraction sambil jaga dia d lengan..aku X tertidur saaaaampai pagi..

Bangun tidur jaa trus mintak tengok cartoon awal pagi buta.. Bagi laa dia tengok favret dia.. Minion.. 

Arghhh.. Ayel! Ibu mengantuk!!!! 

So this is what u'll be going through if u got a child.. X paa.. Tabah ja laa..

My Childish HubbyLove

Hubby bought this thing last month and its just arrived today via poslaju (barang beli dari china gila lambat proses menghantar..)

Lama jugak benda ni pending di Kastam..Reason for buying this thing was still veeeery mystery to me..unknown purpose..dia beli online. Terjumpa kononlaa secara x sengaja di 'ALIEXPRESS.COM'. Masih comel kan si hubby. Macam budak2 beli pistol mainan. Ok sebenarnya pistol ni x sessuuuaaii untuk golongan budak pun! Pistol ni sama power dengan yg slalu kena guna untuk painball.yes! Sangat kuat.. Tembak pakai pluru guli, bole bunuh orang jugak ni..

Soo..setakat ni my clean and beautiful dinding ja laa yg jadi mangsa dia. Belum ada mana2 makhluk hidup yg terkorban.. Tapiiiiiii...
'Sampah' peluru dia ada di mana-mana!!
Fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuhhhhh...
Sabarrr...

But no matter how childish u are, u're still my one and ONLY <3

explorer laaa sangaaaattt (",)t

New desktop background for hubby's laptop..

Menggambarkan kekecewaan hatiku yang sudah berapa hari gagal isi cuti di HRMIS.. 

Dear gabemen..

Why why whyyy we can only use internet explorer for hrmis.. Lembaaaaap.. Tolonglaa hapdet sikeeettt...

Eeee..aku x paham betul! 

Setiap kali ada urusan guna hrmis, mula laa rasa mau mengamuk, hati mencaci maki, panas rasa mau mandi, cari kopi sejuk.. Ughhh!

Aku kena marah suda tau!! Stupid IE..!

Me and Books

As usual.. My baby still refused to come out. Give up suda ibu mau pujuk.. Haha.. I'm 40weeks tomorrow.. So, let just enjoy my day before i dont have anymore time for myself.

Jadi, i grabbed some books from POPULAR BOOK STORE untuk isi masa lapang di rumah.. One of the book is...

(Malasnyaaa mau rotate)

Aku memang peminat tegar horror stories..bagi orang2 mcm aku,aku cadangkan beli laa buku ni sebab sangaaat berbaloi dengan harga (mahal! Rm18 tapi nipis)..buku ni Seram sampai tulang! Lagi bila tinggal di rumah sorang2 macam skarang, huh! Lepas baca 3 4 page, trus buka TV tengok OnePiece.. Cuci otak.. Hahahaha..

Tunggu matahari keluar balik esok baru sambung balik..  (-.-")

SembangSembangKosong

Semburunyaaaa dengan orang yg nama che ta ni.. Dulu kawin di taja. Skarang mau bersalin pun ditaja lagi.. Homaigaddd...

Kan best kalau ada plak hospital swasta mau taja aku bersalin. Confirm2 la aku pilih tarikh bila aku mau branak.. X payah tunggu2 lagi macam skarang ni. Sakiiiitt...

Target for next baby.. Deliver in refflesia hospital, kk. Hubby.. Please agree.. (T.T)

aku dan GAJI

Everytime before payday i've made a promise to myself i wont do online shopping again. Just focus on saving money.. Persediaan future la sangat.. Hahaha..

After payday, buka fb.. Jumpa laa benda2 exotic especially baju2 yang sangat menggoda.. Unable to resist at all.. Mula laa menggedik pujuk husband, pinjam akaun dia utk transfer duit.. Haha..

It happened EVERYTIME since my first gaji..
Old habit die hard!

Arghhh.. Buruk betul perasaan bila mau pegi bayar hutang ni..

Makan sushi dolooo sebelum pantang.. 

OhhMyClinic

New experience today.. Went to klinik kesihatan ibu anak.. Wahahaha.. Punya laa tension! Aku x menyesal berklinik di GP slama ni tapiiii aku sangat menyesal x sambung trus di GP sampai bersalin..

Benda yg jadi hari ni adalahhh... Aku kena buat buku klinik baru! Whathefuhh! Helooo.. Im 39weeks pregnant today.. Perlukaahh??

Bayangkan kalau laa malam ni kaa, esok lusa aku terberanak la plak,x ka sia2 usaha hari ni dengan penuh gigih menunggu di klinik dari jam 9am, bersambung ke jam 2pm..

My antenatal clinic book yang dibuat masa 39minggu preggy.. Hah!

Paling scary,si husband laa.. Dia pun baru balik night duty.. X sempat tidur pun lagi.Kena teman aku pi klinik, tunggu macamtu punya lama.. Mengamuk la dia.. Sudah laa pembawaan baby tu dia yg kena. Asyik mau maaaarah ja (dengan orang lain laa.. Aku kena sayang).. 

though i'm a gov staff too, but i still not agree with cara certain staf klinik layan patient..what are u stressing about?? Tiada pun patient yg perlu ditukar kain, di bantu ke tandas, atau perlu di cebok di sana kan.. Cakap ja baik2. They'll be more understand with ur instruction that way.. Kau jerit2 marah di kaunter tu Dengan muka kelat, ur client pun akan jd lebih kurang ajar dengan kau laa.. Aku pun kena jgk td di kaunter tu.. X apaa.. Aku tengok ja.. Aku rasa orang kaunter tu ja laa yg lebih2 perangai.. Staf lain ok puunn.. 

Puan, sila laa kerja di wad dengan syif yg ada malam, hadap kemarahan doktor2, jumpa kerusi pun skali skala.. Baru sesuai kalo mau stress.. 

baby update : self induce the last hope..

Yeaa title haruslaa 'avatar the last airbender' sangat kann.. (Missed Aang!)

This little pumpkin doesn't moving around much since last night. Ada laa sikiitt cuma x seaktif selalu.. Tapiii aku tunggu dalam 2 3 jam dulu barulaa pi buat aduan di hospital.. Biasa laa gov.hosp sikit2 cakap 'false alarm'.. Bleghh..!
But... Im one of that gov.hosp staff too nguahahahahaha!!

But thats not the main story..
This morning i woke up at 5am (hell its so early!) Then as usual, opened google then found an article about stimulating your nipple can induce labour.. Actually i've heard about this before during my student year duuuuulu.. Madam pernah nasihat kalau cek breast orang pregnant, don't ever pinch their nipple coz it can make some hormones released in their body to induce contraction.

At first i just went through all the mother's story pasal kacau2 nipple and how to do it.. Some said it worked but the other said nothing happen (maybe they did it the wrong way).. Then my curious and desperate mind said why don't i give a try.. Ngehhh..

Tanpa letak apa2 harapan, i tried and guess what.. 5mins of stimulation, contraction started! Yupp.. The strong one.. 2 contraction in 10mins..
 That article said it has 3 methods laa..

1.by your own hand.. Kepit nipple di jari (buat macam mulut bby tengah breastfeed kononnya) then do some rolling motion.. Adoii senang crita, macam mimicking cara baby menyusu la lebih kurang.. Huh!

2.guna breast pumper.. Pump laa breast ko tu sampai nipple erect (katanyaa).. Lebih berkesan..

3.ask your partner to do it for you.. X payah ajar pun.. U're the expert one i guess.. Hahaha..

Aku pun mulai hari ni akan praktik la cara ni memandangkan aku terlalu banyak masa untuk melepak skarang sebab cuti suda start! Hewhewheww (style ketawa budak2 gedik zaman skarang)

Malam nanti bole mintak tolong husband plak.. Mana tau..

get a life!

What an annoying trend happened on fb nowadays.. My hormon hate it so much i'm gonna scream!!

# take a picture of a books with a caption

'boringnyaaa.. X tau apa mau buat..baca buku ja la. Hewwheww'..

Did u really read that book, or just want people to notice that u have such a pathetic life then give some comment like

'jomla lepak.aku belanja' ??

No need to tell the world la kau boring kan.. Just read that damn book silently and get a life.. Tiada siapa mau tau apa yg kau buat setiap masa!

#take picture of yourself, smiling and posing like crazy..then again put some caption yang sedih2 such as..

'Menanti matahari bersinar menerangi mendung dihatiku ini.. I miss you mr.blablabla'

Sempena musim hujan ni banyak plak yg buat benda begini dengan pelbagai caption yg memualkan! Caption langsung tiada kaitan dengan gambar pun!!!

Budak sekolah la ni yg selalu buat macam ni.. Kesiaann.. Pi blajar laa dari sibuk buka fb, update ur life events, blagak artis!

Arghhh! Layan 9GAG lagi bagus..

baby update : seminggu T.T

Genap seminggu os membuka and my deary still want to take her precious time in there before seeing us and the world..

I'm starting to feel so desperate due to breathing difficulty i'm facing right now.. Plusss.. I don't think my hip can't stand the pain anymore.. Sakiiitt.. Turun naik tangga was the best part! My sayannnggg.. Pleeeeeasee.. Come out..

baby update : hari keenam..

Having my contraction for almost six days already.. Contraction became stronger but i still doesn't want to go to hospital for os checking yet.. Tiada keyakinan.. Hahah. Rasanya os still around 1 to 2cm.. Trauma dengan SPEKULUM!

Arghhh! Rasa mau teguk 1 botol ja air selusuh tu..

baby update : stiiiill.....

Having my contraction on and off for almost 72hours already.. Os maintained 1cm.. Discharged from ward yesterday due to slow progress.. Aihh.. Dear 'Aryana' still doesn't want to come out..penat ibu dgn ayah pujuk rayu si kecil ni..

But my friends always said , baby knows better when is the best time for them to come out. Just chillax.. Enjoy your sleep while u still can before ur baby refuse to give u even 5min to rest.. Hahaha...

This budak (nephew yg paaaaling manja dgn aku) macam tau2 ja i'm going to have a baby.. He refused to play and cuddle2 with me.. Im so sad!.. Payel awish.. U'll always be my sweetheart syg.. Sekarang ni misi adalah utk pujuk this little cutie with all the toys he want. Hahaha.. Me memang ibu yg baik kan. Ngahahaha..

Me with dearest ayel awish during raya haji. Senyuman while having contraction pain.. Hahaha

Tomorrow,ayah need to go back sandakan already and i have to follow him and deliver there.. Homaigadd.. Say goodbye laa to that comfortable labor room in likas hospital.. Ayah said he wants to be there when his baby arrive then azan dan iqomatkn sndiri baby dia.. So,no choice. Hai2 labor room sandakan T.T

Soo.. Dear baby ibu. Take your time in there sayang.. We'll be in a car for 6 hours tomorrow. Cuti ayah suda habis.. Don't come out in the car yaa syg..

CERITA RAYA HAJI 2014..

Having my so called 'premature' contraction (didn't understand why 37 weeks pregnant based on LMP still call a premature?? ) on this beautiful raya haji.. excitedly wearing my cute baju raya, put on make up, eye shadow segala bagai.. But then i ended up wearing this hospital's pink uniform and waiting for labor pain utk memunculkan diri..

11am, tuaran hospital decided to send me STAT to hospital likas (kononnya laaa.. Skali ambulans gerak jam 2pm!!) At likas they checked for the os opening using that damn vaginal SPECULUM.. Sampai 3x.. Sumpah its soooo painful! Gilaakk.. 1cm laa bukaan katanyaa..

Now was 4am.. Its already 12hours since my os started to dilate. And i'm still can senyum2, online, and even write something on the blog.. Maybe os maintained 1cm lagi laa nampaknya kn.. Can't sleep not bcause im having a contraction pain whatsoever.. Tp that kakak on my left site mengerang2 sakit and the staff sent her to labor room already.. 4cm dilated.. Aihh untungnyaaa.. Aku ni bila lg.. Masi ketawa-ketiwi riang ria ribena lg baca 9gag. Hahaha...

How many hours more do i have to wait until fully dilate ni kalo mcm ni.. My dear baby.. U can do it! Pushh urself thru that 'tunnel' sygg..  Me and ayah can't wait to see and hug u..
Love u baby!

note for myself...

Be a 'lone ranger'.. It'll make life easier..

#sekian