memasak.. laaaa sangat..

Asalamualaikum..
Yana tidur so boleh la berblogging.. Ngueee..

I'm so happy yesterday.. Baby x meragam banyak so i got time to cook..berapa lama laa sudah tangan ni xda memasak semenjak bersalin..kekok! Hahahah..

Then i asked my hubby to singgah pasar and buy whatever seafood he can get. So, he bought sotong.. Lama jugak fikir mau masak apa dengan sotong ni.. Then i decided to make sambal. Ok. This is my first time cooking sambal sotong.. So, aku buat ikut hati ikut instinct ja.ingat balik ummi selalu masak macamana.. X tengok resepi pun! (Riak sekejap disitu) hahaha!

Taddaaaaaa.....!!

Menyesal pulak buat sikit bila hubby sudah puji. Hehehe. Sedap jugak masakan aku ni walaupun main hentam ja bagi masuk apa aku suka dalam kuali..then i said to my husband,

 "pertama kali buat memang sedap, menjadi.. But i cannot do it for second time,ok"

Yupp..itulah kenyataannya.. Why?? Coz i always cook with my instinct, not by recipe and semua main hentam sajalaa.. And when i want to do it for 2nd time, i'll forget all the ingredient. Even the taste will not be the same..huhh!

Tapi ok la kaann. Setiap kali aku masak, merasa laa si hubby resepi baru.. Ngahahaha..! 

(Riak lagi)

Ok baii..

Aryana : homaigaddd... Ruam susu..!

Assalamualaikum..

Lama la rasanya x jenguk dan update blog.. Never get a chance to do so.. All of my time i spent for Aryanaaaaa only. Even have to sacrifice my sleeping time. Mata so bengkak olredyyy.. T.T
Cepatlaa masa berjalan.. No! Not berjalan.. Berlari.. So my baby will grow up faster..

Aryana was 2month oredy. But still.. She like to marah2 until i don't know what she wants anymore.. Iyaaa.. Hot headed girl. If she awake for more than 3 to 4 hours, she'll start to make a scene until me and husband mati akal.. Macamlaa aku pulak yang paksa dia bangun. Hahaha.. Yanaaaa.. Yanaaaaa.. Ibu loves you so much sayang..

Sekarang dia ada kesukaan yang baru.. Buka baju.. Diam la tu bila masa mandi.. Lepas mandi, pakai baju balik, mengamuk AGAIN..

2 days ago, i saw bintik2 merah di muka dia.. Ruam susu. Sikit ja mulanya.. Then i got advice from doctor to apply aqueous cream on that ruam. After that, her face become merah like fried prawn and i'm so panic like crazy..

I start googling and found some testimony about virgin coconut oil (VCO) can cure pelbagai jenis ruam and eczema.. Apa2 penyakit kulit la konon.. Then i go downstair immediately, grab my VCO jenama TANAMERA, then applied on her skin.. Hasilnya sangaaaaaaat memuaskan.. Muahahaaha.. Kalau la aku tau xda laa mau pakai cream2 segala.. Beberapa jam lepas pakai, pipi dia sudah jadi less merah.. Esoknya sapu lagi, her red skin was completely gone! Amazed jugaklaa sebab cepat pulak kesan dia. Aku baca di google ada orang mau 4 - 5 hari baru berhasil.. Syukur Alhamdulillah..

Kaaaannn... Merah suda hilang.. Yeaaayyy!!

Aku mula jadi penggemar VCO mulai hari ni..

ingatkan sudah tidak meroyan, rupanya.....

Halo halo halooo.. (Still bernada ceria)

Tajuk mau hebat hari ni..

Awal pagi up entri baru.. As usual, berjaga malam sebab YanaBoo. Tapi take turn dengan MIL so x laa tersiksa sangat mata ni..

Baru tau rupanya anakku ni x suka berbantal.. Ciss.. Kecik lagi sudah banyak do and don't ya baby..

Sebenarnya aku tengah marah sangat ni.. Time aku sudah penat tidurkan baby, masa tu laa semua orang mula hempas barang sana sini, ketuk2 sana sini, cakap suara kuat2..  Homaigadd.. Have a little sensitivity people!! I'm not a machine yang boleh 24jam duduk tidurkan anak.. I can be tired too coz i'm a human being just like u !!

Ni sorang lagi tangkai jering! Mintak belikan box yang boleh tolong hayunkan buaian sendiri tu (x tau apa nama laa benda tu).. Penat ja merayu. X belikan pun! Ciss! X apa.. Simpan laa duit tu sayangg.. Tanam mana tau tumbuh plak pokok duit. Aku mampu laa beli sendiri..!

Baik laa.. Kalo lepas ni yana terbangun sebab orang lain buat bising, lari laa aku ni dari rumah!!! Huh!!

Bengangg!!!

selepas meroyan..

Halooo ( nada ceria)

Maafkan post i yg agak meroyan dalam beberapa hari. Hahahaa.. Sekarang ni sudah less depression. In fact, i'm soooo happy today.!

My grumpy queen yana suka tidur dalam buaian!! Homaigaadd.. If only i knew.. Lama sudah bagi dia start tidur Macamni..

Tidur pun dalam keadaan bermuram durja.. Sangat grumpy kann.. Hehe.. Siang2 macamni memang tidur. Tunggu malam kalau ibu x jadi macam mata panda.. (-.-")

Little grumpy queen with puting nakal.. Such a bad parenting method.. I know! But trust me.. I have to.. T.T
Bayangkan laa.. Sudah bagi 2 botol susu then she still ask for more.. That bibir always 'chup chup chup' mintak susu.  Sampai laa dia muntah, muak.. Bab sampai muntah tu yang aku malas.. Tukar baju dia 1 hal.. Tu x kisah sangat. Takut dia tersedak susu.. So, terpaksa sorong jugak puting nakal.

Hari ni memandangkan sudah less meroyan, boleh la jalan kejap di bandar..sekarang kan musim YES.. Berlambak sale. Gagah kan.. Belum lagi habis pantang ni.. Ngihihihi.. What makes me more happy, seluar jeans lama masih MUAT! Hahahahaha.. (Ketawa like a boss) walaupun perut ada sikit boroi.. Alaaa. Macam laa masa belum pregnant dulu ramping sangat.. (-.-")

Owya... Baby ada lesung pipit.. Ngueee.. Rasa mau picit! Comel!! She got 2 dimples..1 on each side. X macam ayah dia di sebelah kiri ja.

Dear Yana Boo..ibu and ayah love u so much..!

Abah..

I miss Abah so much.. (T.T)
AlFatihah untuk Abah..

Abah..
Aku demam. Aku penat. Aku menangis sorang2.. Kalau dulu abah masih ada, mesti abah pegang telinga aku sambil baca surah2.. Abah sanggup drive dari tuaran sampai inanam semata-mata mau bawa aku pi klinik private favourite abah.. 'Klinik Dr.Hussien'. Lepas tu makan roti canai lepas balik dari klinik. Di rumah, abah bagi selimut tebal then tuam kepala aku dengan air.
How i wish u were still here and take care of me like that..

Abah..
Sekarang aku sudah ada anak.. Bila aku demam, aku takut demam tu boleh jangkit dengan baby. I can't handle my baby properly when i dont have enough sleep like this. If u were still here, mesti abah jagakan Yana sampai aku bertenaga balik. Mesti abah dengan umi x kan biarkan aku x cukup rehat masa sakit.
How i wish u're still here and take care of me like that..

Abah..
Whenever i miss u like i felt today, i just can sedekah AlFatihah. U can't take care of me like the good old times anymore..

I love u so much abah..

Hope i'll see u again 'there'..

Aryana : cukur rambut..

Today dear Aryana was 7days old..so ikut sunnah nabi S.A.w, hari ni boleh laa buat kenduri dan kalo berkemampuan, hari ni laa lebih afdhal untuk sembelih akikah..

Memandangkan ibu ayah Aryana ni belum ada pengalaman, so akikah kena tangguh dulu laa sebab belum ada persiapan. Yang mampu dibuat hari ni cuma cukur jambul ja..

Petang ni buat kenduri sikit di rumah parent hubby..
Homaigadd menyesal x mandi awal2 pagi tadi.. Skarang suda ramai orang datang, macamana mandi nihh! T.T
Baju siap basah dengan air susu.. Melekit!

Anak dara ku yang sentiasa tidur sopan..

Ibu doakan anak ibu sentiasa sihat, dilindungi Allah SWT dan membesarlah dengan penuh kebahagiaan dan keredhaan..Amin..

mari meroyan!

Aku rasa aku tengah dalam stage 'baby blues' skarang ni okeh! Itu dari bahasa yang cantik sikit la. Dari bahasa kasarrrrnya 'meroyan'..

Ngehh meroyan laa sangat tapi masih gigih post entry baru kann..

X kisahlaa.. Aku sekarang ni macam alami depresi tau.. Aku penat. Ok penat since delivered belum hilang lg yaa.. Stress due to...

1. insufficient sleep. Perkara biasa laa kan bila suda ada baby.. Sendiri jugak yang bikin.. Ngihihi..

2. Aryana yang menangis dengan penuh power bila diurus.. Terutama time mandi. Anak i benci air yee..mungkin sebab ibu pun x suka mandi sangat masa preggy.. (Pengakuan dari hati yg terdalam)

3. Dengan teguran dari in-law bila Aryana nangis.. It makes me feel like i'm the worst mother in the world. Dont know how to handle my child and my hands will make my baby cry.. Itu laa yang aku rasa. (Nangishh lagi T_T)

4. Keinginan yang membuak2 untuk kurus kembali ke bentuk asal tapi nobody here to guide me how to do a proper pantang.. Nobody knows how to ikat bengkung.. ( lagiii T.T)

5. Jahitan di bawah sana sangat sakiiiitt.. Dengan episiotomi yg memang 'homaigadd' jugak laa rasa. Bila berak taik pulak keras.. Sedeyyy! Makan pisang pun sama jugak.. Aku ni jenis yang jarang dengar petua orang2 tua. Tapi disebabkan kesakitan ni gigih laa aku cari manjakani whatsoever buat air cuci. Tiba2 patuh asalkan luka sepantas kilat sembuh!

6. Husband.. Urghhh.. Sedeyy++.. Tamau laa umpat dia lebih2.. Aku bukan jenis yang pandai meluah pakai mulut face to face. Aku x pandai. Aku x kuat pun. So gunakan laa teknologi yang ada.. Meluah guna whatsapp , send dengan hubby sendiri yang tengah syok bedengkur depan mata.. Sangat mengada kan. Haha.. Tapi apakan daya. Mulut berat mau luah sendiri..

7. Aryana tolak my nipple. Dia lebih suka puting botol susu ok! Menyesal bagi dia susu formula hari tu sebab air susu sendiri belum keluar. Hah! Kan sekarang sendiri yang susah.. Breast bengkak.. I bet esok lusa kalo berterusan macam ni, confirm demam.. Aryana babyyy.. Plis laa tolong ibu.. (Tengah menaip pun T.T jugak ni)

Itulaa antara sebabnya.. Sekarang ni hati sensitif bak tisu. Sikit2 menangis. Ni pun taip entri dengan gigih sambil lap airmata. Sooo letih. Fragile rasanya badan ni. Rasa boleh pecah. Aku gugel laa gejala baby blues ni then dia cakap dalam seminggu 2minggu hilang laa simptom2 tu. Harap2 laa.. X sanggup rasanya layan perasaan sebegini sensitif!

Sopan anakdara aku tidur. Dengan bedung entah ke mana.. Sarung tangan kemana..
Ibu love u so much sayang..

Aryana : tidurlaaa (T.T)

Ok.. I'm officially a mother now.. Means, big responsibility, extra chores and less sleep..

Since beranak 28/10/14, the longest time for me to take a nap was only 1 hour.. Itu pun sebab mintak laa ehsan si ayah tengok2 kan anak dia during visiting hours..

Malam ni laaaagi la. Aryana makin banyak perintah.. Pemarah plak tu.. (-.-")
Then i knew why my hubby was such a grumpy during my pregnancy..

My little 'grumpy Queen'

Sakitnyaaa jahitanku... (T.T)

Anakku sayang.. Behave ya.. At least until all my luka2 sembuh laa.. After this ibu will bring u along when jalan2 shopping at 1borneo yaa.. 

Year End Sale kan x lama lagi.. Uuuuweeee...!

Finally....

My dear little 'Finally' has been arrived last night.. 28/10/2014 at 1.45am..
Ok that's not her name but some of my friends and relatives congratulated me and said 'waahh..finally..'
Ngahaha..

Aryana Shabilla Bt Norfazri..

Last night was the worst moment i've been faced  for my entire life, yet at the end, brought a big bundle of joy for me and husband..

I never thought that i'm such a big screamer! Ok memang bikin malu.. Dulu2 cakap

'kalo aku beranak nanti xmau la teriak2..bikin hilang tenaga ja..'

Padahnya bila sudah cakap besar.. Yeaa.. Hubby was cried so hard watching me screaming like hell on top of my lung.. Keep on jerit 'potong saja laaa aku x tahan aku x kuat.. X mampu teran nihh!!' (Sangat tersipu malu bila ingat balik.. How funny i am that time..siap marah2 doktor ok.. Maluuu)

Baby lahir assisted by vacuum.. Kepala dia terus jadi lonjoooongg.. Sedih.. Ibu veeeeery sory syg sebab x kuat teran (T.T)

Bila baby successfully came out, perasaan macam baru survived dari gua yg mulanya x nampak penghujung dan tiada makanan.. Wahh. Metafora sangat kan..pendek kata, mcm baru escaped from hell!
Happy gilak.. Hubby sambung balik nangis and hugged me so tight while i keep on saying

'Lepas ni kita merancang yangg.. '

Perancangan lepas ni adalah..gigih laa berpantang and bring back my old shape.. Mampu kah?? Hahaaha.then proceed LSCS saja kalo pregnant lagi.. Owhh.. Cukup laa merasa vaginal delivery sekali..

Next time buat entry full pasal experience aku bersalin normal.. Sekarang x mampu menaip panjang.. Yana kuat nangis.. (-.-")

Ayel ku..

You'll always be our first sweetheart..

Fairel Darwisy 

sabar laa wahai hati..

Aku mula rasa bosan dan mau naik marah dengan keadaan sekeliling.. (Meroyan...??)

Am i not putting any effort to make my baby come out faster?? Am i not struggling enough?? So why those people keep on bugging me with THAT question !

'So,u delivered already?'

Have u seen any post on my fb telling everyone that my baby already came out?? Have u seen someone congratulate me there??

SO WHY BOTHER ASKING IF YOU ALREADY KNEW THE ANSWER!!

aku x kisah kawan2 or sodara2 aku sendiri yang tanya aku soalan tu.. I'm thanking them for giving me some tips and encouragement..

Tapi ada yang x pernah ambik tau pun selama ni then tiba2 banyak kali tanya soalan yg sama.. Why ahh?? Aku rasa macam they just want to make fun of me.. Ok mungkin aku ja yg rasa macam tu. Sensitif gila..

Tapi siapa pun di tempat aku akan rasa benda yang sama..aku ni orang yg sedang BERSABAR!

Damn Sleepy!

This little deary of mine came to my house agaiiiiinnn.. Yeeeaaaa!!! So he'll be staying here until his adik come out.. Xda laa boring sangat kehidupan lepas ni..

Last night he slept with me and hubby.. Practice before i'm starting my sleepless night after this. Then mau kasi dia puas2 laa manja dengan aii sebelum adik take over si ibu.

So finally at 11pm.. Tidurlaa budak nakal ku ni.. Lepas bagi dia tengok wayang RIO, baruuuu la mau tidur.aku dengan hubby bole la pi makan aiskrim then we went to sleep afterwards..

Tidur punya tidur, jam 3 pagi i noticed this cute little creature was sleeping deeply on my back. Homaigaaadd. Makan tempat! Badan kecik tapi kawasan tidur dia macam 2 orang gemuk pun bole muat.. Last2, dia tidur di lengan aku sampai pagi..

Gigih laa aku menahan contraction sambil jaga dia d lengan..aku X tertidur saaaaampai pagi..

Bangun tidur jaa trus mintak tengok cartoon awal pagi buta.. Bagi laa dia tengok favret dia.. Minion.. 

Arghhh.. Ayel! Ibu mengantuk!!!! 

So this is what u'll be going through if u got a child.. X paa.. Tabah ja laa..

My Childish HubbyLove

Hubby bought this thing last month and its just arrived today via poslaju (barang beli dari china gila lambat proses menghantar..)

Lama jugak benda ni pending di Kastam..Reason for buying this thing was still veeeery mystery to me..unknown purpose..dia beli online. Terjumpa kononlaa secara x sengaja di 'ALIEXPRESS.COM'. Masih comel kan si hubby. Macam budak2 beli pistol mainan. Ok sebenarnya pistol ni x sessuuuaaii untuk golongan budak pun! Pistol ni sama power dengan yg slalu kena guna untuk painball.yes! Sangat kuat.. Tembak pakai pluru guli, bole bunuh orang jugak ni..

Soo..setakat ni my clean and beautiful dinding ja laa yg jadi mangsa dia. Belum ada mana2 makhluk hidup yg terkorban.. Tapiiiiiii...
'Sampah' peluru dia ada di mana-mana!!
Fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuhhhhh...
Sabarrr...

But no matter how childish u are, u're still my one and ONLY <3

explorer laaa sangaaaattt (",)t

New desktop background for hubby's laptop..

Menggambarkan kekecewaan hatiku yang sudah berapa hari gagal isi cuti di HRMIS.. 

Dear gabemen..

Why why whyyy we can only use internet explorer for hrmis.. Lembaaaaap.. Tolonglaa hapdet sikeeettt...

Eeee..aku x paham betul! 

Setiap kali ada urusan guna hrmis, mula laa rasa mau mengamuk, hati mencaci maki, panas rasa mau mandi, cari kopi sejuk.. Ughhh!

Aku kena marah suda tau!! Stupid IE..!

Me and Books

As usual.. My baby still refused to come out. Give up suda ibu mau pujuk.. Haha.. I'm 40weeks tomorrow.. So, let just enjoy my day before i dont have anymore time for myself.

Jadi, i grabbed some books from POPULAR BOOK STORE untuk isi masa lapang di rumah.. One of the book is...

(Malasnyaaa mau rotate)

Aku memang peminat tegar horror stories..bagi orang2 mcm aku,aku cadangkan beli laa buku ni sebab sangaaat berbaloi dengan harga (mahal! Rm18 tapi nipis)..buku ni Seram sampai tulang! Lagi bila tinggal di rumah sorang2 macam skarang, huh! Lepas baca 3 4 page, trus buka TV tengok OnePiece.. Cuci otak.. Hahahaha..

Tunggu matahari keluar balik esok baru sambung balik..  (-.-")

SembangSembangKosong

Semburunyaaaa dengan orang yg nama che ta ni.. Dulu kawin di taja. Skarang mau bersalin pun ditaja lagi.. Homaigaddd...

Kan best kalau ada plak hospital swasta mau taja aku bersalin. Confirm2 la aku pilih tarikh bila aku mau branak.. X payah tunggu2 lagi macam skarang ni. Sakiiiitt...

Target for next baby.. Deliver in refflesia hospital, kk. Hubby.. Please agree.. (T.T)

aku dan GAJI

Everytime before payday i've made a promise to myself i wont do online shopping again. Just focus on saving money.. Persediaan future la sangat.. Hahaha..

After payday, buka fb.. Jumpa laa benda2 exotic especially baju2 yang sangat menggoda.. Unable to resist at all.. Mula laa menggedik pujuk husband, pinjam akaun dia utk transfer duit.. Haha..

It happened EVERYTIME since my first gaji..
Old habit die hard!

Arghhh.. Buruk betul perasaan bila mau pegi bayar hutang ni..

Makan sushi dolooo sebelum pantang.. 

OhhMyClinic

New experience today.. Went to klinik kesihatan ibu anak.. Wahahaha.. Punya laa tension! Aku x menyesal berklinik di GP slama ni tapiiii aku sangat menyesal x sambung trus di GP sampai bersalin..

Benda yg jadi hari ni adalahhh... Aku kena buat buku klinik baru! Whathefuhh! Helooo.. Im 39weeks pregnant today.. Perlukaahh??

Bayangkan kalau laa malam ni kaa, esok lusa aku terberanak la plak,x ka sia2 usaha hari ni dengan penuh gigih menunggu di klinik dari jam 9am, bersambung ke jam 2pm..

My antenatal clinic book yang dibuat masa 39minggu preggy.. Hah!

Paling scary,si husband laa.. Dia pun baru balik night duty.. X sempat tidur pun lagi.Kena teman aku pi klinik, tunggu macamtu punya lama.. Mengamuk la dia.. Sudah laa pembawaan baby tu dia yg kena. Asyik mau maaaarah ja (dengan orang lain laa.. Aku kena sayang).. 

though i'm a gov staff too, but i still not agree with cara certain staf klinik layan patient..what are u stressing about?? Tiada pun patient yg perlu ditukar kain, di bantu ke tandas, atau perlu di cebok di sana kan.. Cakap ja baik2. They'll be more understand with ur instruction that way.. Kau jerit2 marah di kaunter tu Dengan muka kelat, ur client pun akan jd lebih kurang ajar dengan kau laa.. Aku pun kena jgk td di kaunter tu.. X apaa.. Aku tengok ja.. Aku rasa orang kaunter tu ja laa yg lebih2 perangai.. Staf lain ok puunn.. 

Puan, sila laa kerja di wad dengan syif yg ada malam, hadap kemarahan doktor2, jumpa kerusi pun skali skala.. Baru sesuai kalo mau stress.. 

baby update : self induce the last hope..

Yeaa title haruslaa 'avatar the last airbender' sangat kann.. (Missed Aang!)

This little pumpkin doesn't moving around much since last night. Ada laa sikiitt cuma x seaktif selalu.. Tapiii aku tunggu dalam 2 3 jam dulu barulaa pi buat aduan di hospital.. Biasa laa gov.hosp sikit2 cakap 'false alarm'.. Bleghh..!
But... Im one of that gov.hosp staff too nguahahahahaha!!

But thats not the main story..
This morning i woke up at 5am (hell its so early!) Then as usual, opened google then found an article about stimulating your nipple can induce labour.. Actually i've heard about this before during my student year duuuuulu.. Madam pernah nasihat kalau cek breast orang pregnant, don't ever pinch their nipple coz it can make some hormones released in their body to induce contraction.

At first i just went through all the mother's story pasal kacau2 nipple and how to do it.. Some said it worked but the other said nothing happen (maybe they did it the wrong way).. Then my curious and desperate mind said why don't i give a try.. Ngehhh..

Tanpa letak apa2 harapan, i tried and guess what.. 5mins of stimulation, contraction started! Yupp.. The strong one.. 2 contraction in 10mins..
 That article said it has 3 methods laa..

1.by your own hand.. Kepit nipple di jari (buat macam mulut bby tengah breastfeed kononnya) then do some rolling motion.. Adoii senang crita, macam mimicking cara baby menyusu la lebih kurang.. Huh!

2.guna breast pumper.. Pump laa breast ko tu sampai nipple erect (katanyaa).. Lebih berkesan..

3.ask your partner to do it for you.. X payah ajar pun.. U're the expert one i guess.. Hahaha..

Aku pun mulai hari ni akan praktik la cara ni memandangkan aku terlalu banyak masa untuk melepak skarang sebab cuti suda start! Hewhewheww (style ketawa budak2 gedik zaman skarang)

Malam nanti bole mintak tolong husband plak.. Mana tau..

get a life!

What an annoying trend happened on fb nowadays.. My hormon hate it so much i'm gonna scream!!

# take a picture of a books with a caption

'boringnyaaa.. X tau apa mau buat..baca buku ja la. Hewwheww'..

Did u really read that book, or just want people to notice that u have such a pathetic life then give some comment like

'jomla lepak.aku belanja' ??

No need to tell the world la kau boring kan.. Just read that damn book silently and get a life.. Tiada siapa mau tau apa yg kau buat setiap masa!

#take picture of yourself, smiling and posing like crazy..then again put some caption yang sedih2 such as..

'Menanti matahari bersinar menerangi mendung dihatiku ini.. I miss you mr.blablabla'

Sempena musim hujan ni banyak plak yg buat benda begini dengan pelbagai caption yg memualkan! Caption langsung tiada kaitan dengan gambar pun!!!

Budak sekolah la ni yg selalu buat macam ni.. Kesiaann.. Pi blajar laa dari sibuk buka fb, update ur life events, blagak artis!

Arghhh! Layan 9GAG lagi bagus..

baby update : seminggu T.T

Genap seminggu os membuka and my deary still want to take her precious time in there before seeing us and the world..

I'm starting to feel so desperate due to breathing difficulty i'm facing right now.. Plusss.. I don't think my hip can't stand the pain anymore.. Sakiiitt.. Turun naik tangga was the best part! My sayannnggg.. Pleeeeeasee.. Come out..

baby update : hari keenam..

Having my contraction for almost six days already.. Contraction became stronger but i still doesn't want to go to hospital for os checking yet.. Tiada keyakinan.. Hahah. Rasanya os still around 1 to 2cm.. Trauma dengan SPEKULUM!

Arghhh! Rasa mau teguk 1 botol ja air selusuh tu..

baby update : stiiiill.....

Having my contraction on and off for almost 72hours already.. Os maintained 1cm.. Discharged from ward yesterday due to slow progress.. Aihh.. Dear 'Aryana' still doesn't want to come out..penat ibu dgn ayah pujuk rayu si kecil ni..

But my friends always said , baby knows better when is the best time for them to come out. Just chillax.. Enjoy your sleep while u still can before ur baby refuse to give u even 5min to rest.. Hahaha...

This budak (nephew yg paaaaling manja dgn aku) macam tau2 ja i'm going to have a baby.. He refused to play and cuddle2 with me.. Im so sad!.. Payel awish.. U'll always be my sweetheart syg.. Sekarang ni misi adalah utk pujuk this little cutie with all the toys he want. Hahaha.. Me memang ibu yg baik kan. Ngahahaha..

Me with dearest ayel awish during raya haji. Senyuman while having contraction pain.. Hahaha

Tomorrow,ayah need to go back sandakan already and i have to follow him and deliver there.. Homaigadd.. Say goodbye laa to that comfortable labor room in likas hospital.. Ayah said he wants to be there when his baby arrive then azan dan iqomatkn sndiri baby dia.. So,no choice. Hai2 labor room sandakan T.T

Soo.. Dear baby ibu. Take your time in there sayang.. We'll be in a car for 6 hours tomorrow. Cuti ayah suda habis.. Don't come out in the car yaa syg..

CERITA RAYA HAJI 2014..

Having my so called 'premature' contraction (didn't understand why 37 weeks pregnant based on LMP still call a premature?? ) on this beautiful raya haji.. excitedly wearing my cute baju raya, put on make up, eye shadow segala bagai.. But then i ended up wearing this hospital's pink uniform and waiting for labor pain utk memunculkan diri..

11am, tuaran hospital decided to send me STAT to hospital likas (kononnya laaa.. Skali ambulans gerak jam 2pm!!) At likas they checked for the os opening using that damn vaginal SPECULUM.. Sampai 3x.. Sumpah its soooo painful! Gilaakk.. 1cm laa bukaan katanyaa..

Now was 4am.. Its already 12hours since my os started to dilate. And i'm still can senyum2, online, and even write something on the blog.. Maybe os maintained 1cm lagi laa nampaknya kn.. Can't sleep not bcause im having a contraction pain whatsoever.. Tp that kakak on my left site mengerang2 sakit and the staff sent her to labor room already.. 4cm dilated.. Aihh untungnyaaa.. Aku ni bila lg.. Masi ketawa-ketiwi riang ria ribena lg baca 9gag. Hahaha...

How many hours more do i have to wait until fully dilate ni kalo mcm ni.. My dear baby.. U can do it! Pushh urself thru that 'tunnel' sygg..  Me and ayah can't wait to see and hug u..
Love u baby!

note for myself...

Be a 'lone ranger'.. It'll make life easier..

#sekian

29.09.2012...

Throwback knonnyaaa...

Two years ago, on this date, i've made a very big decision to turned myself into this....

See..how cute my hubby is..
Then today, is our 2nd wedding anniversary.. But lately we've been under so much stress and doesn't even have time to celebrate.. (Nangissshh)
Kerja..kerja..kerja.. Even on our anniversary we're on NIGHT DUTY.. Dating via whatsapp. No cuddling. No candle light dinner..kesian kaannn.. Orang lain mgkin tengah dengar lagu romantik during hugging2 with partners during special day.. Kami....cuma dengar bunyi tingggg...tingg...tinggg... (Mesin cardiac monitor icu/ETD)..

Tapi, apapun, how we celebrate our anniversary doesn't count.. Only heart that matters.. As long as i love him and he loves me, insyaAllah our marriage will remain strong.. Amiinn..

Dear my loving,understanding and supportive husband.. Thankz for everything. Thankz sebab sabar layan kerenah wife yg kuat mrajuk, kepala angin like me.. Especially when dealing with my pregnancy.. Thankz sebab u constantly worried bout me and baby. There is no words that can describe how special u are in my life and how much i love u..u are My very first priority.. Having u as a husband is a GIFT..
Let us wait for arrival of our biggest anniversary present ever.. She'll be arriving veeeeery soon.

Our baby, our Olang the cat and me loves you. Stay cute and healthy..

i'm back..!

So many things happened in my life right now and i need to start blogging again to release my stress!

Homaigaaadd.. Miss u damn much my blog..